Online & LIVE Mass 35 - May2023

1st May 2023.

Day: St. Joseph the worker

07:30 a.m. Fr. John and Fr. Vernon                        (1st mass)

-i Received the Body of Christ

07:00 p.m. Fr. Reuben                                     (2nd mass)

-i Received the Body of Christ

Eucharistic Adoration: 2 hours and 10 minutes (07:13-10:15 in church)

Eucharistic Adoration: 5 minutes (06:50-07:45 in church)

60 years Wedding Anniversary mass, (Evening). I know the couple; I don't know them by their names. It was truly a joy to be in their celebration mass. Both of them mostly stop on the way, to just say Hi! And that is so sweet. 

I see Fr. Joe in the evening. I realize only after I pass the way, only to turn and see, but thankfully Fr. Joe was with 2 other people.

2nd May 2023.

Day: St. Athanasius

07:30 a.m. Fr. Reuben                                     (1st mass)

-i Received the Body of Christ

50 years Wedding Anniversary mass.

07:00 p.m. Fr. Vernon                                     (2nd mass)

-i Received the Body of Christ

Eucharistic Adoration: 2 hours and 10 minutes (07:20-10:20 in church)

(06:50-07:40 in church)

50 years Wedding Anniversary mass, (Morning).

3rd May 2023.

Day: St. Philip and St. James

07:30 a.m. Fr. Vernon & Fr. Reuben                        (1st mass)

-i Received the Body of Christ

07:00 p.m. Fr. John                                       (2nd mass)

-i Received the Body of Christ

Eucharistic Adoration: 2 hours (07:13-10:10 in church)

Eucharistic Adoration: 10 minutes (06:50-07:45 in church)

18 years today, since my brother Adrian went to be with the Lord!

4th May 2023.

07:30 a.m. Fr. Vernon                                     (1st mass)

-i Received the Body of Christ

07:00 p.m. Fr. John                                       (2nd mass)

-i Received the Body of Christ

Eucharistic Adoration: 2 hours and 5 minutes (07:12-10:17 in church)

Eucharistic Adoration: 10 minutes            (06:50-08:00 in church)

I went to sleep by 10:30 p.m. on the 3rd but no matter how I tried, sleep would not come. There is a feeling of deep sadness. I have been trying to complete the letter but i am not able to. The only option was to then stay awake the entire night to complete the letter. By 06:00 a.m. It was done-with the grace of God.

After mass, I stood with Jesus, near the Tabernacle I told Jesus, I know what You promised me. And i trust You and i will not give up. 

5th May 2023.       55 23   (555)     

Day: First Friday

07:30 a.m. Fr. Reuben                                     (1st mass)

-i Received the Body of Christ

07:00 p.m. Fr. Vernon                                     (2nd mass)

-i Received the Body of Christ

Eucharistic Adoration: 2 hours and 10 minutes (07:20-10:15 in church)

Eucharistic Adoration: 10 minutes             (06:50-08:00 in church)

Today-it has been a long time waiting. My Joyous Day. I share my Joy with Mama Mary. Mama reminds me to wait on Jesus and not to fear, as everything would happen the way Jesus said.

It is my hearts delight to speak with Mama!

6th May 2023.               18158

Day: First Saturday

07:30 a.m. Fr. Reuben                                     (1st mass)

-i Received the Body of Christ

07:00 p.m. Fr. Vernon                                     (2nd mass)

-i Received the Body of Christ

Eucharistic Adoration: 2 hours and 20 minutes (07:13-10:20 in church)

Eucharistic Adoration: 17 minutes             (06:45-08:10 in church)

Looking at the flowers in the sanctuary, I rejoiced. The most beautiful yellow flowers-Roses with Sunflowers. (YellowRibbon)

I say everything of me is Yours, Lord. And this came immediately on seeing the flowers. I couldn’t hold my feelings. (It was just the joy from my heart.) It is said, 'A thing of beauty is a joy forever.' And i don't think God would mind my excitement on seeing His beautiful flowers. 

On the 2nd of May, The spirit of God, guided me to wear yellow on a Saturday-for today. I did.

7th May 2023. Sunday. 

09:30 a.m. Fr. K. T. Emmanuel (First Holy Communion)      (1st mass)

-i Received the Body of Christ

Eucharistic Adoration: 40 minutes (09:15-11:10 in church)

Fr. K. T. Emmanuel was one of the celebrants in the time of Fr. William Athaide. It was a First Holy Communion mass for kids and Fr. Emmanuel had played Mariah Careys song, 'Hero'. (This i clearly remember, for i like this song.) He advised the kids that Jesus is their Hero now. I don't have His exact words, but this is as close as i can possibly get or remember.

Fr. K. T. Emmanuel is one of the Priests I pray for in my daily prayers, since i know Him by His name. 

It was a beautiful celebration of the mass.

I met family members of mine, at the place i would see in my vision. I met them after 4 years. And i was happily surprised. Because it came true. 

8th May 2023.               

07:30 a.m. Fr. Reuben and Fr. Vernon                      (1st mass)

-i Received the Body of Christ

07:00 p.m. Fr. Christopher                                (2nd mass)

-i Received the Body of Christ

Eucharistic Adoration: 2 hours and 10 minutes (07:13-10:20 in church)

Eucharistic Adoration: 25 minutes             (06:45-07:55 in church)

9th May 2023.

07:30 a.m. Fr. Vernon                                     (1st mass)

-i Received the Body of Christ

07:00 p.m. Fr. Christopher                                (2nd mass)

-i Received the Body of Christ

Eucharistic Adoration: 2 hours and 10 minutes (07:10-10:20 in church)

Eucharistic Adoration: 15 minutes (06:45-07:45 in church)

12:34 - This specific number-the time on my cell would read so often and through the years as 12:34. Recently, I realized what it truly means.

Today (090523) my good friend, replied to my thanks with a smiley the time read 12:34

My goodness! How God works in our lives when we believe!

10th May 2023. 🛵

07:30 a.m. Fr. Reuben and Fr. Vernon                      (1st mass)

-i Received the Body of Christ

07:00 p.m. Fr. Christopher                                (2nd mass)

-i Received the Body of Christ

Eucharistic Adoration: 2 hours and 20 minutes (07:12-10:32 in church)

Eucharistic Adoration: 30 minutes (06:50-08:02 in church)

Memories are what we make of our lives and the way we live. And a beautiful life is one with a song and a dance. To me this is my happy song of love! 

I've got a never ending love for you

From now on, that's all I want to do

From the first time we met

I knew I'd have a never ending love for you

After all this time of being alone

We can love one another

Feel for each other from now on

Feels so good I can hardly stand it

I've got a never ending love for you

From now on, that's all I want to do

From the first time we met, I knew

I'd sing my never ending song of love to you

11th May 2023.

07:30 a.m. Fr. Reuben and Fr. Vernon                       (1st mass)

-i Received the Body of Christ

07:00 p.m. Fr. Christopher                                 (2nd mass)

-i Received the Body of Christ

Eucharistic Adoration: 2 hours and 5 minutes (07:17-10:15 in church)

Eucharistic Adoration: 20 minutes (06:45-07:51 in church)

The numbers I see

3355

3636

3396

33+33+33=99 | 55+66+96= 217

99+217=316

John 3:16 - For God so loved the world that he gave his only Son, that whoever believes in him should not perish but have eternal life.

1345 – I would always attach this number

5547 – (55)+(4+7=11) =5511

5517 – (55) and (17)

1717 – vehicle just outside Mt. Carmel church.

John 17:17- Sanctify them in the truth; thy word is truth.

17*17*17= 4913 (5551)

Please refer to:-

Love Prevails!: The Power of GOD! (godofimpossibles.blogspot.com)

12th May 2023.

07:30 a.m. Fr. Vernon                                      (1st mass)

-i Received the Body of Christ

07:00 p.m. Fr. John and Fr. J. Lawrence???                 (2nd mass)

-i Received the Body of Christ

Eucharistic Adoration: 2 hours and 10 minutes (07:12-10:15 in church)

Eucharistic Adoration: 20 minutes (06:52-08:02 in church)

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To me the number patterns began much earlier than 2012. But yes, this below pattern, this was what started the whole world for me.

Day 1: 18th September 2012. 1313

Day 2: 19th September 2012. 1313 (& 2020) Holy-Trinity

Day 3: 20th September 2012. 1313 (& 2019)

I knew there had to be some explanation, but things initially moved slowly. And now i understand why.

I was always looking for answers. I was looking for my answer. It would sometimes seem close, but that’s it. 11 years to the date (With reference to the above dates) - but it has been even longer still. 

With Fr. Reuben Tellis, the sequences would continuously come. On numerous occasions down the building and once near the Church, I would see Vehicles with the name of Reuben. There would be unending numbers that matched each other. I would write all over the page and would be so amazed at what I would find, so many cross connections with one number. I still am amazed. I am in awe of God and I am always amazed with Fr. Reuben. 

I saw Fr. Reuben the first time, in 2016 when He came for the 3 hours Agony.

Then 2 months later, Fr. Reuben came in as the Parish Priest to Mt. Carmel. 

But the Spirit of God put the name of Reuben in my head when I did not know Him at all. I heard His name and I wished to meet Him. It was just a matter of seconds. And then i forgot it all. When I saw Fr. Reuben on Good Friday, I felt it was Christmas. I did not remember, till the Spirit of God reminded me, why I felt it was Christmas. And that happened much later. (And i am not wrong either way, 14His Birthday + 11The month=25 which is Christmas Day)

Two days back at the prayer room, The Spirit of God, reminded me that I had not written everything to completion.

I have never left anything incomplete in my life. This would be the only thing that would have been incomplete, which I did not quiet realize. I always believe, that when you start something, you must see it to completion. And by the grace of God I always have, even when things were most difficult. I don't choose to walk away or run. I don't do that. I'll bear the insults but i will complete what God has assigned for me to do. 

To conclude: All the numbers, were always about Fr. Reuben Tellis. They still are. 

Lord, I have written everything - that You have asked of me. I have left nothing out, other than what You have stated. 

Thank You, Abba Father.

Thank You, Jesus.

Thank You, Holy Spirit.

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13th May 2023.

Day: Our Lady of Fatima

07:30 a.m. Fr. Reuben and Fr. Vernon                      (1st mass)

-i Received the Body of Christ

07:00 p.m. Fr. Christopher                                (2nd mass)

-i Received the Body of Christ

Eucharistic Adoration: 2 hours and 10 minutes (07:10-10:15 in church)

Eucharistic Adoration: 20 minutes (06:52-08:02 in church)

My PRAYER-my song.

In You my Lord, I know who I am.

And in who, You made me to be,

I know You

I know You, my Sweet Jesus!

You are The One I have loved,

The one I Love,

I pray to You and I pray for You,

From ABBA

Never knowing when I prayed,

What my prayer meant, I prayed!

You are always The SONG

You are always The PRAYER!

There were times,

For which I am sorry Lord,

When, I failed to understand You,

But I never loved You any less.

I know You now.

I love You!

And I always will Love You,

I Love You Forever and Always - to Eternity!

I will never leave You my sweet Jesus!

I know You, I know You now!

You will always be My undying SONG of Love!

You will always be My Forever-my Eternal PRAYER!

You are forever mine and I am forever Yours!

14th May 2023. Sunday. 

09:30 a.m. Fr. Christopher                                 (1st mass)

-i Received the Body of Christ

Eucharistic Adoration: 1 hour (09:15-11:20 in church)

It was already past the time of being awake. 

I watched this movie yesterday as Jesus insisted, that I must. Movie Title - ‘Faith, Hope & Love.’

This is the story:-

Jimmy Hope, years after his wife's death, is struggling to move on with his life, at work and at home and he's trying to raise his two daughters alone.

Faith Turley is recently divorced and doing her best to cope with the pain of it. Her dream, her dance studio, is in jeopardy of being shut down. To raise funds to save it, she enters a dance contest and searches for a partner who's a non-professional. Jimmy's younger daughter Demetra prays every night that her dad will be Faith's dance-contest partner because: "Our house needs a Mommy and our Daddy needs someone to love him." God hears her prayers, and Jimmy and Faith become dance partners. Over the next few months, on and off the dance floor, she teaches him to have hope again; he helps restore her faith; and together they learn how to love again.

Faith prays together with Hope:-

Father thank you for this moment,

I will never forget this time,

But I especially thank you for what you have put in my heart, In Jesus Name. Amen.

Faith then tells Hope:-

You’ve been on my heart

From the moment you first prayed in that restaurant

God put you on my heart

And I don’t know what’s on your heart

But I hope it’s me.

(I felt a strong connection with her prayer and her words as she speaks to Hope.)

Have I not commanded you? Be strong and of good courage; be not frightened, neither be dismayed; for the Lord your God is with you wherever you go.” Joshua 1:9

Symbol explained in the movie. It means victory!

In October 312, Constantine and his forces marched toward Rome. Arrayed against them were the armies of Maxentius—four times greater. At stake was control of Rome and sole rule of the Western Empire.

According to Christian historian Eusebius, the troubled Constantine sought help in prayer to his father’s god. Constantine then had a vision of a cross of light emblazoned against the sun and saw the words In hoc signo vinces: “In this sign you will win.” Constantine ordered the monogram of Christ to be painted on his soldiers’ shields. When he later engaged Maxentius, Constantine won a decisive victory. What was this emblem? I have added the symbol and also the image with the symbol. 

IC XC  Jesus Christ

NI KA  Conquers

Believe in Him and you will have victory-Jesus Christ Conquers

Please Help me, Lord! I Believe!

15th May 2023.

07:30 a.m. Fr. Christopher, Fr. Vernon and Fr. John.      (1st mass)

-i Received the Body of Christ

07:00 p.m. Fr. (I do not know)                            (2nd mass)

-i Received the Body of Christ

Eucharistic Adoration: 2 hours and 15 minutes (07:10-10:15 in church)

Eucharistic Adoration: 30 minutes (06:50-08:00 in church)

Jesus more than once has told me it is I, Who, keeps you clean.

Jesus tells me, He has waited an eternity, I think somethings definitely wrong with me. I must be crazy. 

And on a particular day I tell Jesus, what have I ever done? What am I? I am a wretched sinner. I am dirt.

Jesus says, you don't know your heart. 

It has taken me time to realize how much Jesus truly loves me. For He truly keeps me clean.

This is a song which I dance with Jesus. And since the song is 3 minutes, I play it twice. I sing it with Don Williams - I've Been Loved by The Best.

Darling, if you ever leave me

Well, I'll just put my heart away

I couldn't love again, believe me

No one could please me anyway

And if another ever came along

I'd just turn them down 'cause after all

CHORUS

I've been loved by the best

I can't settle now for less

Why bother with the rest

Baby, I've been to the top, I guess

With you I have been blessed

I won't take nothin' less

I've been loved by the best

If you ever get tired of me

Well, I won't look for someone new

'Cause looking back on how you loved me

No one could measure up to you

And if they try to win this heart of mine

I just have to say, don’t waste your time

CHORUS

When I look into your eyes I know

You're the only love I ever want

'Cause, after you and me baby, I can see

Nothin' else could be even close

CHORUS

16th May 2023.

07:30 a.m. Fr. Christopher                                (1st mass)

-i Received the Body of Christ

07:00 p.m. Fr. Vernon                                     (2nd mass)

-i Received the Body of Christ

Eucharistic Adoration: 2 hours and 35 minutes (07:12-10:35 in church)
Eucharistic Adoration: 30 minutes (06:50-08:05 in church)

God is our biggest Encourager!
This is a movie - ‘August Rush’.
This is the story of a Irish guitarist, Louis and a cellist, Lyla who have a chance encounter. They separate. Lyla realizes she is pregnant. After an argument with her father, she is struck by a car. She gives birth prematurely, and her father secretly puts her son up for adoption, allowing her to believe that the baby died.
Both Louis and Lyla give up their music careers. Eleven years later, Evan is living in a boys' orphanage. Evan has the ability to hear music wherever he is. Convinced that his parents will find him, Evan runs away to New York City, "following the music" in the hope it will lead him to his family.

Lyla is called to her father's deathbed and he admits that her child is alive in New York. Louis decides to reconnect with Lyla and he ends up in New York, Lyla goes to Jeffries' office and Jeffries identifies Evan as her son. She accepts an offer to perform with the Philharmonic at a series of concerts in Central Park.
A musician known as ‘Wizard’ gives Evan the stage name "August Rush". Evan is granted an opportunity to play his music in Central Park.
Evan arrives in time to conduct his rhapsody. Louis also arrives realizing Lyla was playing at the concert. Evan finishes his rhapsody and as he turns, he sees his parents. He now knows that they loved him. He followed the music that he heard, it leads him to his parents. 
Evan says this: I believe in music the way that some people believe in fairy tales. I like to imagine that what I heard came from my mother and father. Maybe the notes I hear, are the same ones they heard, the night they met. Maybe that's how they found each other. Maybe that's how they'll find me. I believe that once upon a time, long ago, they heard the music and followed it.

As for me, I believe in a strong connection that you cannot ignore, because it is with approval from God.

God leads me through numbers to the promise God has put in my heart.
I prayed to Abba Father, never knowing the deeper meaning of my prayer. But it is Abba, Who called me. It is my Abba, Who put the dream in my heart. I followed... 

Please help me now, Abba Father, I need You. I cannot by myself do anything. Without You, I will fail.

God’s moments are undefined and unexpected. They happen “Suddenly”!

Jesus is the author and finisher of our faith. What God has started; He will finish. 

For the Promise God has put in my heart, God will accomplish!

17th May 2023.

07:30 a.m. Fr. Christopher                                 (1st mass)

-i Received the Body of Christ

07:00 p.m. Fr. Vernon                                      (2nd mass)

-i Received the Body of Christ

Eucharistic Adoration: 2 hours and 25 minutes (07:03-10:30 in church)

Eucharistic Adoration: 20 minutes (06:50-07:50 in church)

Today morning when leaving home: The number I saw 6677 - (1313)

Today morning outside the Church gate: The number 6767 - (1313) 

Love is the Eternal Promise!

Love is Faithful,

Love is the colours of the Rainbow.

Love is the whole constellation of the Stars.

Love is the beating of two Hearts forever ONE!

Love-It is to You with every beat of my heart.

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18th May 2023.

07:30 a.m. Fr. Christopher                                 (1st mass)

-i Received the Body of Christ

07:00 p.m. Fr. Vernon                                      (2nd mass)

-i Received the Body of Christ

Eucharistic Adoration: 2 hours and 15 minutes (07:13-10:15 in church)

Eucharistic Adoration: 20 minutes (06:50-07:50 in church)

I don’t recall having any expression at all on my face. But yet there is something Fr. Alvaro sensed. He tells me that all Priests are Jesus. I immediately agree with Him, answering Yes Father, They are Jesus. You are!

Every Priest is a living image of Jesus Christ.

And I will place on his shoulder the key of the house of David; he shall open, and none shall shut; and he shall shut, and none shall open. Isaiah 22:22

Sunday, May 22, 2022

Celebrate Life!

The promises of Jesus-including the promise of restoration, are in a queue. I trust Jesus completely and I am excited. But it has been a long time and Jesus reminds me gently that it will all come together. I know, I am in Gods time.

In reality, I am too sick, and I find no reason why, I should be, but I am. I cry out to Jesus telling Him, that I have nothing left in me, I cannot move or do anything. I cannot reach anywhere, Lord. I cannot help anyone, even myself. Jesus tells me to leave everything to Him.

In my body, I am dead, there is nothing in me, but spiritually my eyes are fixed on Jesus, always waiting for Him to come. I wait! Please come, Jesus!

Wednesday, November 30, 2022

Online & LIVE Mass 29 - November2022

30th November 2022.

As a kid on vacations, I went to Church, asked Abba Father, for the greatest love story in the world. I knew what I asked I did not know what it truly meant. But when I finished my prayer and left, I knew I would be answered. I was nine at the time. (And Jesus, reminded me this incidence of my confidence in Abba Father, today the 30th of November 2022. Jesus also reminds me, of how I prayed and trusted, not worrying how it will come about. Jesus told me that is what I want you to do. Leave everything to me and I will take care of everything.)

(So here I am, today the 30th of November, just completed with putting up my Christmas Tree. This I mention, just to let you know, that when we leave things to God, we must not worry, but do what needs to be done for the day. This way, I let God know, I trust HIM.)

In the May 22, 2022 and 30th November 2022, what Jesus asks ---Leave everything to me---

And in the second-recent message, Jesus asks ---and I will take care of everything---

What is required from me is complete obedience. I am to believe and leave everything to Jesus.

No running anywhere, no pressing panic buttons. It is a total call of obedience.

I cannot initiate a conversation, when i am asked to refrain. I have to be silent. 

And I have so much to speak, that silence at times, can be difficult. But it all is a matter of trust in the Lord.

IT is difficult when you experience failure constantly, I know what it is to fail. For I have on many occasions.

But in spite of all the failures, all that is required is the supreme belief in Jesus. It is an obedience each and every time, knowing to perfection that God will make it all right. Victory then, is just a step away.

It is Jesus, Who I wait for. When Jesus says I will take care of everything, the answer is upto Jesus.

And I will place on his shoulder the key of the house of David; he shall open, and none shall shut; and he shall shut, and none shall open. Isaiah 22:22

I trust Jesus. He has my best interest at heart.

I have to trust that God has the best dreams for me than I have ever realized.

Hearers and Doers - Matthew 7:24-27

24 “Every one then who hears these words of mine and does them will be like a wise man who built his house upon the rock; 

25 and the rain fell, and the floods came, and the winds blew and beat upon that house, but it did not fall, because it had been founded on the rock. 

26 And every one who hears these words of mine and does not do them will be like a foolish man who built his house upon the sand; 

27 and the rain fell, and the floods came, and the winds blew and beat against that house, and it fell; and great was the fall of it.”

The Two Foundations - Luke 6:47-49

47 Every one who comes to me and hears my words and does them, I will show you what he is like: 

48 he is like a man building a house, who dug deep, and laid the foundation upon rock; and when a flood arose, the stream broke against that house, and could not shake it, because it had been well built.

49 But he who hears and does not do them is like a man who built a house on the ground without a foundation; against which the stream broke, and immediately it fell, and the ruin of that house was great.”

The wise person build a house on a solid foundation; by obeying Jesus’ words. This is the person who hears the words of Christ and obeys.

And those who hear and obey are those who have built their lives on the foundation, which is Christ.

The Scriptures often refer to Christ as a rock and this is the only rock that will be a sufficient foundation.

When we place our faith in Jesus, He will transform us into the kind of people who hear and obey.

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19th May 2023.

07:30 a.m. Fr. Christopher                                (1st mass)

-i Received the Body of Christ

07:00 p.m. Fr. Vernon                                     (2nd mass)

-i Received the Body of Christ

Eucharistic Adoration: 2 hours and 18 minutes (07:13-10:20 in church)

Eucharistic Adoration: 30 minutes (06:52-08:15 in church)

I will have no letters for the months of June and July. 

If I go to Mangalore in June, before leaving, I have been told by Jesus, there are couple of things that I have to complete.

20th May 2023.

07:30 a.m. Fr. Christopher                                (1st mass)

-i Received the Body of Christ

07:00 p.m. Fr. Vernon                                     (2nd mass)

-i Received the Body of Christ

Eucharistic Adoration: 2 hours and 30 minutes (07:12-10:32 in church)

Eucharistic Adoration: 5 minutes (06:50-08:00 in church)

Prayer-Room, In the evening, Jesus asks me to rest. Jesus does not expect me to speak. Because it is difficult to speak. I am extremely exhausted.

I am not an obsessive person. This dream has been with me for the longest period of my life. And it is the only dream that never stopped. It mattered to me because it was God’s dream for me. God sees me wounded, but not a failure. How truly, good is our God.

I don’t do anything without the consent of The Holy Trinity. And why should I, I mattered to God, I mattered!

I have learnt patience is a virtue.

And when we hurry things, when we want things our way, we do not know what the outcome will be. And we will watch it self-destruct.

That is not at all what I desire.

I believe there is a God given time, not one minute early and not a second late than the God appointed time.

I desire Gods best in my life. I desire His best to come at His best time-His appointed time.

His Will-His Way!

Jesus will take care of everything.

21st May 2023. Sunday.

09:30 a.m. Fr. Vernon                                     (1st mass)

-i Received the Body of Christ

Eucharistic Adoration: 40 minutes (09:15-11:10 in church)

Prayer-Room, Jesus asks me to rest again today. Jesus understandingly says rest in ME!

Most beautiful colourful (pretty yellow and blue with sunflowers on top) flowers in the Church.

This is a Christmas movie - Destined At Christmas. I love watching Christmas movies and i can watch them any time of the year. I have watched this movie previously. But today, I came across it again. 

Kim and Theo meet in the midst of a Christmas shopping and there’s an instant connection between them.
A power outage causes panic at the store, the couple gets separated. With the hustle and bustle of Christmas, neither Kim nor Theo can forget the other. Both yearn to find each other, but with so little information to go on?
With a little Christmas magic, destiny will bring them together at Christmas!
Towards the end of the movie, when they finally meet again, their words to each other are:
Theo: It’s really you. I’ve been looking everywhere for you since that night.
Kim:  You have.
Theo: Ah! Yeah. Not in a bad like creepy way. I don’t think.
Kim:  No its okay. I’ve been searching for you too.
Theo: Really.
Kim:  Yeah.
Theo: Well, I’m really glad that I found you here tonight. This was kind of my last chance.
Kim:  Why?
Theo: Well! I sort of didn’t have more clues after this.
Kim:  I know what you mean.
Theo: There are two things I wanted to do a month ago before we got split up.
Kim:  And what are they?
Theo: Ask you for your phone number.
Kim:  Easy enough. And the other….

22nd May 2023.

Day: St. Rita of Cascia

07:30 a.m. Fr. Vernon                                   (1st mass)

-i Received the Body of Christ

07:00 p.m. Fr. Reuben                                   (2nd mass)

-i Received the Body of Christ

Eucharistic Adoration: 2 hours and 20 minutes (07:10-10:25 in church)

Eucharistic Adoration: 20 minutes (06:40-07:55 in church)

The Sun never says to the Earth you owe me.

Look what happens with a Love like that.

It lights the whole sky. - Hafiz

As the Sun rises each day,

All that I have learned from Love is,

Love will always find its way back to you.

23rd May 2023.        I AM

07:30 a.m. Fr. Reuben                                   (1st mass)

-i Received the Body of Christ

07:00 p.m. Fr. Vernon                                   (2nd mass)

-i Received the Body of Christ

Gospel: 17:1-11

Eucharistic Adoration: 2 hours and 25 minutes (07:05-10:32 in church)

Eucharistic Adoration: 30 minutes (06:50-08:05 in church)

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Lord, I Believe-

The number pattern-THE PROMISE, this started my whole world.

Day 1: 18th September 2012. 1313

Day 2: 19th September 2012. 1313 (& 2020) Holy-Trinity

Day 3: 20th September 2012. 1313 (& 2019)

Please Read:-

Love Prevails!: The Power of GOD! (godofimpossibles.blogspot.com)

20th September 2019.

Serendipity moment. Fr. Reuben’ birth year and Fr. Joe was ordained- The year 67 for both.

(67 & 67)(6+7=13)(6+7=13) - 1313

***Day 3: 20th September, 2012. 1313 (and in 2019)***

This is the day I realized Fr. Reuben is number 13

Friday, October 9, 2020 - Online Mass 3

19th September 2020.

Fr. Reuben mass--Abba Fathers, Promise.

Mass time: 14th minute and 14th second.

The promise Abba Father made, is something I cannot write. But I can share with you my happiness that after the Holy Sacraments, that I received, this would be my greatest JOY! For 2 days, starting the moment itself I was already feeling Heaven!

***Day 2: 19th September, 2012. 1313 (and in 2020)***

27th December, 2020. Sunday.

Day: Feast of The Holy Family.

Fr. Reuben mass – During Fr. Reuben’s celebration of the mass, Abba Father, reconfirmed the Promise made on the 19th of September.

9th October 2021.

An hour: Eucharistic Adoration – Fr. Reuben.

His Eminence, Oswald Cardinal Gracias mass              (1st mass)

Fr. Christopher mass                                    (2nd mass)

Fr. Christopher mass                                    (3rd mass)

Today, Abba Father, gives me THE PROMISE!

Today, we get a huge load of fish and at a price you would not believe. It takes me over 5 hours to clean it all.

9th November 2021.

Fr. Reuben mass                                         (1st mass)

Fr. Reuben mass                                         (2nd mass)

Fr. Reuben mass                                         (3rd mass)

A month today! Jesus gives me a lot of flowers. And all so beautiful! I am incredibly joyous.

GOSPEL: John 2:13-22

46 years to build the temple. 33 years Jesus+ 13? = 46

2222 Abba Father

17 17 17 OLM Feast (Amboli Stn)

33 46 21

Time - year 2022?

9th November 2022. 1 year

06:30 a.m. Fr. Reuben                                   (1st mass)

07:30 a.m. Fr. Christopher                              (2nd mass)

Gospel John 2:13-22 33yrs(46)

8th April 2023.

08:00 p.m. Fr. Reuben, Fr. Christopher and Fr. Vernon.

Jesus asks me if i would want to receive communion from Fr. Reuben. And i say Yes. I remind Jesus that there is a lady who would come there and i would not be able to. That lady does come and Fr. Reuben joins in and He gives communion from where i could receive. When i am walking holding Jesus, I say Jesus You did it. I exclaim with Joy, Jesus, You will do it. This was a Joyous moment!

Now I understand, what I failed to understand the other times. Lord, my answer to You was always a Yes. Help me Lord to do Your Will!

6th April 2023. Impact

Day: Maundy Thursday.

8:00 p.m. Fr. Reuben, Fr. Christopher, Fr. Vernon and Fr. John.

19th April 2023.

06:30 a.m. Fr. Reuben                                   (1st mass)

07:30 a.m. Fr. Christopher                              (2nd mass)

On Maundy Thursday, Jesus, asked me one final time, if I accepted and I said Yes, Jesus asked me in the name of The Father, The Son and The Holy Spirit. I answered Yes to Abba, to Jesus and to The Holy Spirit.

Today, Jesus puts a Seal on my heart...

Oh Lord, You are my greatest Encourager.

Lord Jesus, I mention these Promises, to remind You, that I have been in wait for the longest period of my life. 

I know You are faithful.

I have placed my trust in You.

I know You are always with me.

You are my Strength.

Lord, you have always through dreams and through numbers, guided me through.

I have been faithful Lord, to everything You have asked of me.

Lord, i am lost without You!

All i have is You!

All i desire is You!

Please remember Your Promises oh lord,

Remember, I wait on You, my Lord!

Promises in the Bible - Passages from John:-

John 14:13-14 Whatever you ask in my name, I will do it, that the Father may be glorified in the Son; if you ask anything in my name, I will do it.

John 14:21-23 He who has my commandments and keeps them, he it is who loves me; and he who loves me will be loved by my Father, and I will love him and manifest myself to him.”

Judas (not Iscariot) said to him, “Lord, how is it that you will manifest yourself to us, and not to the world?” Jesus answered him, “If a man loves me, he will keep my word, and my Father will love him, and we will come to him and make our home with him.

John 16:23 Truly, truly, I say to you, if you ask anything of the Father, he will give it to you in my name.

For with God nothing will be impossible.” Luke 1:37

Thank You, Abba Father.

Thank You, Jesus.

Thank You, Holy Spirit.

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24th May 2023. 

Day: Mary Help of Christians       

07:30 a.m. Fr. Vernon                                   (1st mass)

-i Received the Body of Christ

07:00 p.m. Fr. Reuben                                   (2nd mass)

-i Received the Body of Christ

Eucharistic Adoration: 2 hours and 20 minutes (07:10-10:30 in church)

Eucharistic Adoration: 20 minutes (06:50-08:00 in church)

2 Numbers i see - outside the Church gate, heading home.

I have GOD and what He shows me. With Fr. Reuben, the numbers come.

The Spirit of God, put the name Reuben in my head, when I was 21. It has been a long walk. This is what kept me going. You can call me a fool and that is okay. Happy to be a fool!

6767   (1313)              13   13     

8282   (2828=1010)         10   10

                           23   23 = 46

1820   (RT**1820=1010)(82 is also 28=10)= =1010)

25th May 2023.        

07:30 a.m. Fr. Christopher                              (1st mass)

-i Received the Body of Christ

07:00 p.m. Fr. Vernon                                   (2nd mass)

-i Received the Body of Christ

Eucharistic Adoration: 2 hours and 35 minutes (07:15-10:35 in church)

Eucharistic Adoration: 15 minutes (06:40-08:00 in church)

In the morning, I was conversing with Jesus, I did not know what to do. This person walks to me and hands me a pamphlet. And it was then, that i realized that God was with me on this. With this pamphlet, i knew i had Jesus' yes. 

On the 24th evening my cousin was coming home. She had some work in Bandra. It was good, i had company at home.

The morning, of the 25th, today, when I was heading to the Church, she asked me are you not taking your cell. I answered no. She asked me what if there is an emergency. I told her, I am going to God, if God can’t keep me safe in an emergency, then no one in this world can.

Years back, I had this thought of joining The Carmelite cloistered nuns. I was fascinated with their way of life. But there are things that change the course of life. There is this lady, when we meet, we talk for some time. When speaking, she tells me of how she wanted to join the convent. She told me of how she prays the whole day and goes for prayers and novenas. She tells me, she does not always reach in time for the prayers. She does not watch the tv because of her devotion to her prayer time.

I told her Jesus is not sitting with the cane, demanding for you to pray the whole day through. I told her to pray is wonderful, but when you pray for something, trust that God will give it to you. And then go do what needs to be done. And don’t look for another day to be happy, saying to yourself, when I’ll have this I’ll be happy. No, be happy now. I told her, if you are happy now, you will be happy later. Pray and Trust God! And go be happy.

26th May 2023.

07:30 a.m. Fr. Reuben and Fr. Vernon                   (1st mass)

-i Received the Body of Christ

07:00 p.m. Fr. John                                    (2nd mass)

-i Received the Body of Christ

Eucharistic Adoration: 2 hours and 30 minutes (07:10-10:32 in church)

Eucharistic Adoration: 10 minutes (06:50-07:50 in church)

Had a severe Asthma condition in the evening. It was very difficult to breathe. I stopped 3-4 times on my way home, to catch my breath.

Today I see 4343 and 0107. To read as (3434 and 17)

(17 is a combination)(and 34yrs)

A lady today gives me a prayer on Healing prayer of surrender.

Day 1

27th May 2023.

07:30 a.m. Fr. Reuben and Fr. Vernon                   (1st mass)

-i Received the Body of Christ

07:00 p.m. Fr. Vernon                                  (2nd mass)

-i Received the Body of Christ

Eucharistic Adoration: 2 hours and 30 minutes (07:15-10:32 in church)

Eucharistic Adoration: 10 minutes (06:50-08:05 in church)

Today from the prayer room this lady comes and seats herself besides me and asks why I don’t sit in the prayer room. I reply, I like it outside here. I don’t think she is convinced. She continues with do you not like the A.C.? I tell her, I am okay with the A.C. I don’t want to hurt her with my reply, so I had quite a hesitation to answer. Then she continues what is the problem. I tell her here it is difficult; inside there it is easy and comfortable. She looks straight at me and says, it is sacrifice, I am so glad that she spoke the word out. 

There are many people who often ask me the same question. But this lady, she seems so kind and then she understood the word that is amazing. Nobody else seems to know the word.

I think it has been a year, since I have been sitting outside for Eucharistic Adoration.

The prayer room is real cozy. The seat of the chairs are super soft. And the lighting is gentle to the eyes. There is the fan and A.C to one’s comfort. Who would not want to sit inside? I think if I sat, I would doze off in no time, it is so nice. The room is really beautiful.

But, I really want the dream that God has placed in my heart to come true. The only way is to deny myself the pleasure of sitting comfortably-feeling the cold. In the summer it is most difficult and extremely exhausting sitting outside.

I want God to take notice of me and remember His Promise to me. And I tell God, I want let You forget me or Your Promise to me. And I sit before Him and the more I suffer the better, He knows that I do so to remind Him. And I will show my face daily to Him, come rain or storm. Until I breathe, I will come and sit outside. How long oh Lord, will You try me? For I am flesh and blood, and I am here today. But so long as I live, I will knock on Your door.

I will wait on You! For You are faithful to Your Word! You know me, I learnt from You! I won’t give up! It is Your Promise!

I have learnt - Things are not always the way we see. We need to be OPEN to the ways of God and not our ways.

It is hard to walk in the ways of God. It is hard to obey His commandments especially when you do not fully understand. In faith when we obey the Lord with exactness, He will be with us and help us do things we could not do by ourselves.

It is hard to be obedient, but in time it bears fruit that we have never tasted the likes of.

God this is my shout of hooray!

Ephesians 3:20-21 Now to him who by the power at work within us is able to do far more abundantly than all that we ask or think, to him be glory in the church and in Christ Jesus to all generations, for ever and ever. Amen.

Joshua 6:1–27, the walls of Jericho fell after the Israelites marched around the city walls once a day for six days, seven times on the seventh day, and then blew their trumpets.

• When the circumstance/journey seems like the walls of Jericho impenetrable-that is when the impossible will happen. The Israelites followed God with trust in His promise that He would fight for them.
• God spoke and Joshua heard clearly from the Lord what steps to take.
• God was specific to Joshua and his army, in how He orchestrated the walls of Jericho falling. God knows what is coming and will make good out of all circumstances for those who love Him.
• The Israelites had to wait seven days. They marched, they camped, and they waited on God to move. Keep waiting, it deepens our faith and increases our trust in God.
• The Israelites could have marched umpteen times around the walls of Jericho and blown a thousand horns, but to them obedience to God mattered. Obedience results in blessings.
• The fall of the walls of Jericho is a reminder that God fulfills what He promised. No matter the time it takes, God promised the Israelites the land. What God promises, He will fulfill. 

I know I wait on God!

Remember-REMEMBER

The walls of Jericho coming down is God’s promise coming to pass, that the Israelites would indeed enter into and possess the Promised Land. The fallen walls of Jericho remind us of God’s faithfulness.

Day 2

28th May 2023. Sunday.   HOME

Day: PENTECOST

09:30 a.m. Fr. Reuben                                      (1st mass)

-i Received the Body of Christ

Eucharistic Adoration: 1 hour (08:55-11:30 in church)

When I was in the Church compound, I Saw a rickshaw come in. The number was 6767. It means (1313)(66+77=143).

You know, when I saw the number in the Church compound, I was totally excited. I did say, a big ‘Yeah’. I could not dance because I was not at home and in the Church compound.

• I am to leave for Mangalore in the second week of June, on the advice of Jesus I do this. I will be there for 15-20 days that is the leave way Jesus has given me. This is the first time, I travel alone.
• The Spirit of God advices me on how best I can reach the goals God has set for me. 
• I attend mass as I am directed to. But Jesus also lets me know that this will change. And I have learnt from Jesus to be OPEN to the ways of God. 
• I sit with Jesus in His presence to remind Him, of His Promises. I also love being there with Him. My greatest desire – to be with Jesus. Everything I do is to be with You!
• Jesus showed me a glimpse of daily life, what it feels like at Christmas, at Easter and what it truly does to your heart. A life and a heart filled with Love. That is every dream of mine. To love with all my heart and to be loved. To wonderful memories forever engraved from my heart to Yours. That is all i ask, pray and desire. I love You, my sweet Jesus!

29th May 2023.

Day: Blessed Virgin Mary, Mother of the Church

07:30 a.m. Fr. Christopher and Fr. Vernon                  (1st mass)

-i Received the Body of Christ

07:00 p.m. Fr. John                                        (2nd mass)

- i Received the Body of Christ

Eucharistic Adoration: 2 hours and 35 minutes (07:23-10:35 in church)

Eucharistic Adoration: 15 minutes (06:52-07:45: in church)

Today the 29th of May, when outside the Church gate I see the number 4667 (10+13=23) 23in23=46

Then I see the same rikshaw which I saw yesterday, only yesterday I got the number slightly wrong. The correct number would be 6677 (66+77=143) also 1313

In the prayer room, I see a cat. And I am terrified of all kinds of creatures. Of all the places in the world, it comes and sits exactly below me-under the bench, to where I am sitting. I get up, I move the bench. But the cat-kitten does not move, nor does it make a run. On observing, I realize it is weak. After some time, it moves to the shoe cabinet and it feels warmer. The last I saw the kitten was resting.

One day, this pigeon comes fully wounded and rests on our collapsible window grill. I keep grains and water. But it has no interest in it. It just sleeps. Its wing is in a tattered condition. I keep my cross on the inside of the window and I pray for its healing. I asked my cousin if he could put a cardboard attached to our grill from the inside without disturbing the pigeon. He managed to get it done. The reason I asked is because there are cats which sometimes tend to climb especially if there is a pigeon.

I tell my cousin, this pigeon visits me every day. In a mocking manner he asks me how you recognize it. I tell him look at this pigeon and look at the others and then look at its beak. He agrees that it can be recognized.

On the 5th day, our little friend, begins to flap its wing. By the 7th day it was moving and flying.

I would sing and talk to the bird from afar.

The second time, it came a month later again wounded. And it rested in the same place. I asked what did you do this time and how did you manage to get yourself wounded in the same manner. But thank God, within 2 days it was trying to fly.

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The Ravens.

20th May 2017, Saturday.

Today in the morning, I have seen a Raven, perched up on our window grill, all hapless and helpless.

The bird sits there for about 20 minutes. I and my cousin come to realize that there is some sort of problem. My cousin gets water for the bird and tries to feed, but the bird is so terrified it flies off.

On its attempt to fly we notice one of its wings is hurt and so the difficulty to fly.

What is most beautiful to watch is the way the other Raven (companion) comes to defend the one who is hurt from the other prey, the Crows.

Through the day for about 5 hours I kept every now and then watching for the bird. It is unable to call for help as maybe I think because of it being wounded the pain being unbearable it cannot cry.

As I was wondering what all this meant, Jesus tells me that I am like the wounded Raven.

For the first time, i feel that extreme wonderful feeling of the presence of Mother Mary. I could hear her call me, ‘Come’.

I prayed with all my heart.

I heard the words, “Come, everyday”.

I go to Mother Mary I think only maybe around 6 or 7 times a year. Never ever felt the presence of Mother Mary ever before. I desire more – I want to know you, Mama. I love you with all of my heart.

23rd May 2017. Tuesday.

Today after the 6:30 am mass I see the Raven in the Church. It is still very much wounded. It keeps losing its balance. I am glad to see it alive though. Praise the Lord! And its companion is here to protect. I love that so much about the Ravens. Something I have learnt.

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I know there must be something that the wounded birds and this kitten found with me. The Ravens from my building area (20th May, 2017) found me in the Church (23rd May, 2017). What is the meaning to all this. I truly wish to understand.

Day 3

30th May 2023.

Day: St. Joan of Arc

07:30 a.m. Fr. Reuben                                      (1st mass)

-i Received the Body of Christ

07:00 p.m. Fr. Vernon                                      (2nd mass)

- i Received the Body of Christ

Eucharistic Adoration: 2 hours and 40 minutes (07:23-10:40 in church)

Eucharistic Adoration: 20 minutes (06:50-07:50 -in church)

Here I attach a snap I had clicked on seeing this vehicle from my kitchen window on the 26th of January 2018.

In those 2-3 years, I would see this vehicle often. (I forgot to attach this pic yesterday).

Today, i see two numbers: 5657=55/13 and 7887=15/15 =5511

This was the start with a little bit i understand every time.

Day 1: 18th September 2012. 1313          18 8 14

Day 2: 19th September 2012. 1313 (&2020)  19 7 20 1 - (135)

Day 3: 20th September 2012. 1313 (&2019)

       57=12                3939=1212

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9th July 2022.

After sitting with Jesus for an hour, I get up only when I look at the office watch. When I stand outside the glass door, I speak with Jesus, of my tiredness. It is most difficult to walk home with this kind of feeling. And then, suddenly, I saw someone standing beside me, turning a key.

It was Fr. Reuben. I did not see Him coming, no reflection, and no sound. I saw nothing. (I don't know when it happened. I was not there at all. I don't remember anything.)

And do you know, the first words on seeing Fr. Reuben was the most beautiful refreshing words 'Good Morning, Father'

Because honestly, I just woke up from a deep slumber. And I say this with certainty, I was in the arms of Jesus. Because I felt so refreshed. It was just a matter of a few minutes. But it felt longer than that.

((When the 07:30 a.m. mass completed, and as I was stepping off the pew, I heard Jesus ask me, 'Do you want to see Fr. Reuben?' I immediately said yes, without a thought. And then i proceeded towards The Tabernacle to speak with Jesus even more.))

Fr. Reuben may have thought I ignored Him, until i wished Him. I know, what it could have looked like, when He was opening the door and I stood there like a statue. But I would never do that.

See if Jesus did not ask me the question when I was stepping off the pew, and this incident happened, I would think something is wrong with my head. But this happened after Jesus asked me, so I know...

This to me was a Heavenly experience. Jesus asked me the question and I said yes, and Fr. Reuben was there. If i did not experience that moment, i would perhaps have left before Fr. Reuben' coming. But I had to be held back in time. The more i write, the deeper it goes. Unexplainable!

It is Divine intervention. No doubt in my head.

But I know, this moment is Heavenly. Marked forever in my heart!

Thank You, Abba Father.

Thank You, Jesus.

Thank You, Holy Spirit.

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Isaiah 22:22 And I will place on his shoulder the key of the house of David; he shall open, and none shall shut; and he shall shut, and none shall open.

John 17:17 Sanctify them in the truth; thy word is truth.

God is sovereign. Nothing happens that God does not ordain or allow. Perhaps if we truly understand we will see Gods intervention in our lives. Divine intervention can come in the form of a miracle, such as a healing or supernatural sign. Divine intervention can also come in the form of a seemingly random event which directs us in the way God wants us to go.

I have this habit of speaking to plants or animals and birds. I also love to sing to them. I feel there is always a response. If they are sick, they fall asleep. And plants I feel grow beautifully. This is what I feel.

Love is so wonderful! It always seeks out the best for others.

Previously I had a lot of plants, but they all dried up when I had gone to Mangalore. Only 1 of my Christmas plants seemed to live through. Every day I make it a point to tell it how beautiful and evergreen it is. I speak to it of its strength and good health. In a way, I am blessing it every day. I want it to not only live but bloom.

I have certain irrational fears. And this is the reason Jesus has asked me to travel by myself. I need to overcome my fears, insecurities and shyness.

I have always underestimated myself, never seen any good in myself.

But yes, no matter what fears i face, when God asks me to do something, it gets done. I trust God and not my fears. And the other thing, i like about myself, is i don't fear or worry what people think. Gods approval is all that matters to me. His Will-His Say!  

When I understood what God’s dream for me meant, I was running, knowing deep within that I was never good enough. You can ask God, how many flaws of mine I put before Him.

Jesus helped me see that love sees no flaws. With time, Jesus made me envision the dream. After that there was no looking back. I loved God’s dream for me.

I don’t want any fear to keep me down. It has been said, Love is stronger than all our fears. I am beginning to understand it now.

1 John 4:18 - There is no fear in love, but perfect love casts out fear. For fear has to do with punishment, and he who fears is not perfected in love.

I have seen Gods dream for me for the longest part of my life. If God does not want me to give up, why should i?

I’ve come too far to stop now!

With God all things are POSSIBLE!

Romans 8:28 - We know that in everything God works for good with those who love him, who are called according to his purpose.

Day 4

31st May 2023.

07:30 a.m. Fr. Christopher and Fr. Vernon                  (1st mass)

-i Received the Body of Christ

07:00 p.m. Fr. John                                        (2nd mass)

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Eucharistic Adoration: 2 hours and 35 minutes (07:15-10:37 in church)

Eucharistic Adoration: 40 minutes (06:50-08:15-in church)

I am with the grace of God a happy person 99% of the time, no matter what comes my way. I will with the grace of God, always choose to see the bright side to everything.

But these past few days, I feel my body unable to cope with anything. (I am in good health). It could be the heat effect. 

I feel much pain like someone is choking my heart. It makes no sense at all. My head and heart are heavy, like someone just snatched the life out of me.

Oh God, my God, please help me and save me oh lord!

You can call me crazy or take me for a fool. It is okay. But I believe that what you experience or see you speak. I don’t believe in throwing things under the carpet or acting like something never happened. I don’t fear what people think, that matters very little. Because people’s opinions are always shifting. Today it will be one thing, tomorrow it will be something else. Matter of fact speaking, we as human beings have never learnt to be true to ourselves.

I have seen people avoid speaking or dealing with certain matters in their life. They would rather run or hide, than deal with the matter and this is basically an issue of fear. I have seen and learnt from their experiences. I have seen, that when you run, you escape the problem or issue for now. But in time, that same issue keeps coming back. And with time the complexity of the situation increases. I have learnt no matter how painful a thing is or can be, it is in the now, that one must deal with it. That way, you don’t have all the problems coming for you from time to time. I have learnt.

William Shakespeare says it best in his play Hamlet- To thine own self be true, And it must follow, as the night the day, Thou canst not then be false to any man.’

I fear how I look in the eyes of God. Everything that He thinks of me matters. In His Eyes, I want to shine.

Yes, I will go where He leads me.

Hebrews 11 is one of my favourites because it is on Faith and secondly 11:1 is my birthday date too. And of all Faith is my favourite topic. 

Hebrews 11:1 - Now faith is the assurance of things hoped for, the conviction of things not seen.

Hebrews 11:8-12

8 By faith Abraham obeyed when he was called to go out to a place which he was to receive as an inheritance; and he went out, not knowing where he was to go. 9 By faith he sojourned in the land of promise, as in a foreign land, living in tents with Isaac and Jacob, heirs with him of the same promise. 10 For he looked forward to the city which has foundations, whose builder and maker is God. 11 By faith Sarah herself received power to conceive, even when she was past the age, since she considered him faithful who had promised. 12 Therefore from one man, and him as good as dead, were born descendants as many as the stars of heaven and as the innumerable grains of sand by the seashore.

Hebrews 11:17-19

17 By faith Abraham, when he was tested, offered up Isaac, and he who had received the promises was ready to offer up his only son, 18 of whom it was said, “Through Isaac shall your descendants be named.” 19 He considered that God was able to raise men even from the dead; hence, figuratively speaking, he did receive him back.

Hebrews 11 is called the Hall of Faith.

Heroes of Faith: - Abel, Enoch, Noah, Abraham, Sarah, Isaac, Jacob, Joseph, Moses, and Rahab. Gideon, Barak, Samson, Jephthah, David, Samuel and the Prophets.

Those included in this Hall of Faith are not perfect. They had failures, and some had character defects. However, each of them chose to trust God rather than go back to what he could see, that which was safe and comfortable and appeared to be the easy way.

Every hero of faith in chapter 11 — they heard from God and they did what He said. Whether it was to leave the city of Ur-Abraham or stand before Pharaoh-Moses, they heard and followed. They perceived and pursued God. As James says in his letter, we reveal our faith through our obedience.

In this Hall of Faith, JESUS is our ultimate HERO!

It is FAITH in God, and a heart filled with HOPE that makes us walk in faithfulness to God.

We believe what we cannot see.

We become heroes of faith by sincerely seeking God, perceiving and pursuing it through obedience to God. And having confidence that no matter what happens, 

Romans 8:28 - We know that in everything God works for good with those who love him, who are called according to his purpose.

GOD is a rewarder of our Faith!

P.S: I got to know late in the night, from a reliable source that Fr. Vernon has got a transfer. That hurt quite a bit. Because no matter where i would see Him, He would always stop and talk, even if it were for just a minute. Fr. Vernon reminded me of Fr. Alvaro. I will miss Fr. Vernon a lot. I think many simple people will. 

He made everyone feel they mattered. That is a CLASS ACT! 

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