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My People,

Hello! This is my year. This is when things begin….

John 17:17 Sanctify them in the truth; thy word is truth.

The above verse is as to my finding of 1717. I have come across this number various times. This happened after completing the retreat on the 16th of July 2017, on my way home and at Andheri station. The time read 17:17:17 – that was the first time.

As I sit to write I feel the awesome and breath-taking works of God! I am a witness to His magnificence.

It’s raining very heavy in Mangalore and though at present I am able to hear at a minimal level, I can hear the sound of thunder, and when it does, it thunders all the way to my heart. I love the feeling of being so blessed to be able to listen to this splendid work of God! I am in awe of everything that God IS!

Our Splendid God! Our Magnificent God! 

It is just special moments listening to Bryan Adams. This is, Here I am!

Here I am this is me
There's nowhere else on earth I'd rather be
Here I am it's just me and you
Tonight we make our dreams come true

It's a new world it's a new start
It's alive with the beating of young hearts
It's a new day it's a new plan
I've been waiting for you
Here I am
Here I am

Here we are we've just begun
And after all this time our time has come
Ya here we are still going strong
Right here in the place where we belong

It's a new world it's a new start
It's alive with the beating of young hearts
It's a new day it's a new plan
I've been waiting for you
Here I am
Yeah here I am
Here I am, yeah
Yeah here I am

Waiting for you
Here I am this is me
There's nowhere else on earth I'd rather be
Here I am it's just me and you
Tonight we make our dreams come true

It's a new world it's a new start
It's alive with the beating of young hearts
It's a new day it's a new plan
I've been waiting for you

It's a new world it's a new start
It's alive with the beating of young hearts
It's a new day it's a new plan
I've been waiting for you
Here I am

Here I am
(Oh here I am) right next to you
(Oh here I am) and suddenly the world is all brand new
Here I am (Oh oh oh)
Here I am
I'm gonna stay
There's nothing standing in our way
Oh here I am
(Here I am)
Here I am
This is me

Love is a mighty thing! It is a power beyond the understanding of the heart. It is even beyond the capacity of the human mind. The heart is a safe lock but it can never completely understand what love can do!

Love is everything! It is, it has always been around me. It has taken me a lifetime to understand that this is my call. It is LOVE!

Love is always found in its simplicity! Look!

Jesus Christ, the Son of God, having taken human flesh in the womb of the Virgin Mary, and being made man, was born of her, for the redemption of mankind. Joseph and Mary had come up to Bethlehem to be enrolled, and, unable to find shelter elsewhere, they took refuge in a stable, and in this lowly place Jesus Christ was born. The Blessed Virgin wrapped the divine Infant in swaddling-clothes, and laid Him in the manger.

For Jesus born in the Stable. (Love in simplicity)

Luke 9:58- “Foxes have holes, and birds of the air have nests; but the Son of man has nowhere to lay his head.”

God loves us so much that through Jesus, The Father walked the Earth, in Him with us.

And he said to all, “If anyone would come after me, let him deny himself and take up his cross daily and follow me. Luke9:23

And whoever does not take his cross and follow me is not worthy of me. Matthew 10:38

The world has been moving pretty fast. At the rate at which it is moving, the words humanity is nearly out. Compassion and Mercy are just mere words now.

Travelling the world is in, dining in fine places is in. Have the money to spend on ones desires is in. Feast the body, spare no expenses is in. And what more can I pile on to all this that we do?

We pleasure our bodies, we pleasure our minds, and we take pleasure in all the body desires. We let the decay set in. This body has to rot finally, but before that it piles all that, it can to make it rot faster.

Jesus words are simple. I have to deny myself, the pleasure this body would love to have. This life is not mine, but one given by God. Therefore I must live it with obedience and faithfulness. Simple!

And he answered, "You shall love the Lord your God with all your heart, and with all your soul, and with all your strength, and with all your mind; and your neighbour as yourself." Luke 10:27

When you first fall in love, one does not begin by being perfect. But overtime, being in love, watching the other, one craves to be better and better with each day. One hopes to be perfect for the beloved. And with the grace of God, one gets there. Jesus understood perfectly and hence laid the emphasis on love. When you begin to love, a change begins. Love brings in change. Love makes us perfect. True love teaches us to be obedient and faithful.

The devil seeks to destroy families because that is where Jesus grows, in the midst of the love of the spouses and in the lives of their children.

Don’t fool yourself with thinking it is okay to cheat, because of the anger or resentment you feel for what the other has done. That is rubbish. There is no justification for being unfaithful and a liar.
Don’t fool yourself with saying I don’t have to be obedient to the husband, I am not a dog. Nobody is a dog. But if I am called a dog, I don’t become one. Obedience to the husband. Obedience to the boss. Obedience to all people in positions.
Don’t think flirting is not a sin. It is especially when you are married. It is called being unfaithful. And it is a sin. When one flirts one is unfaithful.

Sin hardens the heart and makes one blind, one is then incapable of knowing or seeing the truth.

Love will pave the path, to surrender our egos, to learn to be better with a better understanding of what God wants from us. We will obey God and when we understand the love of God, we will understand, that humiliation is a part of carrying our Cross. To get hurt, it is a part of life and also a way to love. We don’t stop. We carry our Cross with love.
God is humble and God humbles Himself that is perfect love. He shows us the way to be humble each and every day of our lives. Do you understand?
When we reach that point, a complete surrender will happen, with a perfect understanding of faithfulness and obedience to the will of God. A complete denial to self and what we think or feel but love, love will grow. Love will teach us. Love will change us.

We were made to love God. What a beautiful notion, that God made us so that we can love Him. What am I? What are we? We are given that choice to love God. As human being our greatest yearning is always to be loved. And we are loved by God so much that He waits for us to love Him back that much. Not for Gold, Diamonds etc. But love Him with our whole heart. What a lovable God we have. All so sweet, so kind, so gentle!

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There is a lot I have learnt in my two months stay in Mangalore. For about 45-50 days I was unable to hear. I could hear the celebration of the mass, for which I am eternally grateful to God.
God bless my family, they were extremely patient with me. I say this because in my family, we all love to talk and my parents had to make an extra effort when talking to me.  

These are my experiences I write. Part of it is what I have faced with people. Part of it is what I have come to understand. In silence, I experienced a lot. I was always in conversation with God. He kept me in silence so I could hear Him alone. There were moments I craved to hear as normal people do. But then there were those moments where in silence, He filled my heart completely. Those are the moments I cherish the most.  


There was a time when the company I worked for hosted a party. The two men at the party were drunk and they were insisting that since we live in the same area they would give me a drop. I said no thank you. When they kept insisting, I kindly refused. I refused because their intention was wicked. They did not take my response kindly and they held on to that anger for months.

But God is quick, I say this because I was worried as to how to go home. As I walked away a colleague walked up to me and told me he was leaving and if I was looking for company. This colleague of mine had his share of drinks too. But he was alright. He not only dropped our female colleague but he made sure I got a drop till my gate and then he went towards his home. He should have been the first to reach home. I was to pay him my share of the money but he paid the whole fare. And not once did he misbehave. Today I call him friend.

One Person say X comes to Mt. Carmel’s for the 7:30 mass every evening with his wife. Would you ever think of such a person as wicked?

The other person say Y, he and his wife are the people who do the Potta arrangements for people to attend the retreat. He sings the passion of our Lord on Good Fridays. Would you ever think of such a person as carrying wicked intentions?

Such is the wicked-wicked world. And these are the people of the church, the two people with horrible thoughts. Pope Francis says Love the sinner and hate the sin.
And yes, I never attend any parties other than family outings. 

People behave wickedly and some of them think, that, nobody should talk about it? WHY not? You do the crime. You do the time. Correction is of the essence. God is watching us... I write...

I don't speak in tongues. What I understood back then, is that people spoke in languages that were foreign to them. I have yet to understand this concept. What I do not understand, I stay silent on. But when I see ridiculous behaviour I’ll be quiet till the Spirit of God tells me to. Some people like me are in search of God and whatever path they find, they walk on. For them I pray, like maybe someone prays over me. There are good people. But some are just plain fake. Sometimes I hear people sing in tongues taking Hindi music. And I think what? And some people scream, like the Holy Spirit cannot hear them? I wonder why?

I remember my confirmation day so clearly, when the Bishop applied the seal of the Holy Spirit, on my forehead. I felt a silence. I felt joy. I had a lovely-simple day. The Bishop did not scream and call the Spirit of God. There was no thunderous clapping and what not.

The Spirit of God, is a part of our everyday life. He is here with us form the day of our Baptism. In silence, He fills us, in Silence we find the answers, in silence we find God.

Sometimes this is what I wonder, when I hear people scream and sing, Halleluiah! Halleluiah! I understand what it is to praise and worship. I do. They make it look like the Spirit of God comes on them only when they scream to the loudest, otherwise God is not listening! I find that weird. I find it difficult to understand that as gentle as the Spirit of God is, and the people calling with such loud ways, say I am a believer, I say Okay it could be so, but when you call on the Spirit of God, where is the deeds, where is the love for the other? Where is the gentleness? When people pray calling on the Spirit of God, I would expect them to have that heart that is so open and understanding and loving. I would think that their heart would be so tender that I would never want to leave from that place. 
Unfortunately, the Halleluiah! Halleluiah! is become a pattern and I have seen people just suddenly start praying and then suddenly there is quietness. I experienced this in Mangalore when I went to Stella Maris Church.

I am not part of the crowd that shakes my head and says yes. I do what I am asked to do. It is always up to God!

For retreats, I see the list of things, they ask a person to carry. It’s not like the charges are less. But let’s talk about, why we go for a retreat?

When I went for a retreat, my earnest desire was to sit in the presence of God with no concern to time. Time means little. I am here today, gone tomorrow. All I wanted was to tell Jesus of my love?

It did not matter to me, where I would sleep. It mattered very little, about eating. But when there was a list given, I followed it. It was my first retreat and I don’t think I will ever think of another.

Most people were concerned with room facilities and food. I remember there was Chicken biryani and some people behaved like they had never seen chicken before or for that matter ever eaten.

People are more worried, about eating, their baths and their rest time.

And yes I also remember a couple who came for the retreat and asked for a separate room for themselves? And the lady told them, yes, there is a room, but there would be extra charges. Can you imagine that, a separate room for the retreat? This is horribly wrong. This is not a retreat mentality.  

We have to leave the worldly way behind. Time matters no more when you come for a retreat. It must be God and me. That is what a retreat must be. I must look for God and He knows I’m looking for Him. He lets me find Him. But my search must be genuine.

The ideal retreat - my time with God.

• I can sleep on the floor. Bed is a luxury unless the person is aged or sick.
• I eat when food is provided. Nothing fancy. Remember you have come to spend time with God and you are not in a Restaurant. Deny feasting.
• No nap time in the afternoons. Deny yourself the rest. 
• The most important aspect of the retreat is SILENCE.
• In silence you will find God.
• The last time there was this person Lenny and he spoke as if the aborted person was in the room. Maybe he knew someone and was speaking. But that is not right. Imagine that person is already wounded and comes for healing. His accusation would have caused more hurt and more grief. It is not right to hurt a person at all. That is a serious NO! And that too in the presence of the Holy Eucharist and the Priest. No outside speaker. If one is permitted then there must be a formal training and the Priest must know what the speakers topic is and if there is a mistake then there must be a gentle rebuke. No body must be offended, least of all the person who makes a retreat.
• Reverence to the Holy Eucharist. It is not an entertainment program for people to come up and place their hands all over the Holy Eucharist, just because the speaker said so. Lenny made no sense, in the absence of a priest, he began to think he was one. If he did not talk there would be no problem. No outside speaker. There may be some good people, but they may be so few to number.  
• If a retreat is to be conducted it must always have a Priest in Charge. No one else will do. 
• Of what I have seen during Eucharistic adoration, a person sits with the rest of the people, he makes note of certain things and then it is read out to the public. I don’t believe in the way it is done. That is not the way the spirit of God works. 
It is like everyone is waiting for a magic show or the 4th of July fire-works. It is a crowd puller, yes. But it is not what God wants. I’ll be blunt, you can pull out information of people from anywhere, these days. You don’t need to know magic. Is it spirit works, or is it man works? We are answerable to God. 
• No petition box. Matthew 7:7 says, “Ask, and it will be given you; seek, and you will find; knock, and it will be opened to you.
  

  For God so loved the world, that he gave his only begotten Son, that whosoever believeth in him should not perish, but have everlasting life. John 3:16

  Which of us would sacrifice anything of ours for anyone. God loves us so much that He gave His only Son. Will He then withhold anything from us?
  Jesus says ask. Remember, Faith pleases God.
  Petition box blocks ones asking God.
  God wants more for you than you do.
  COME! Sit in the presence of the Lord!
   

This is my experience, I had when the Potta team had come to Mt. Carmel’s. I wanted to know, what it felt like listening to them.

Everybody loved it, including my cousin.

But this is what I want for you, to realize, all people talk and true it can be wonderful to listen. And with the Praise and worship, there is nothing like it.

But for me, I found that everybody spoke and what I could remember was a very minute bit. And honestly I was a lot sick at the time and I got bored too. I am not the retreat – all talk kind of person.
I love listening to Priests. I like my silence-it gives me time to reflect. I love my time with God. In silence, God fills me with His Peace. Silence is a wonderful feeling. But when you don’t experience silence, when you don’t enjoy it, then let me tell you the hard truth, you haven’t experienced God. That is the essence of a good Retreat really.

In a retreat, you come to experience God. But if everyone talks, if there is no silence and you haven’t spoken with God, then how and when will God respond? How will God work in your heart? Do you understand? 

Fr. Ashlyn, would always say, come and sit before God (in the presence of the Holy Eucharist). What he implied was, come and sit in silence and find Him here!

There was this recording of a catholic prayer group who had been to Gulf. And the speaker was asking the people to state the amount they received as salary, and then the speaker told them they were to pay tithe. I stopped watching the programme when I realized that his intention was to know the salaries, so as to get more out of the people who had come for whatever that was. I was shocked with the program, I don't think that should be a matter of discussion. Anyway, this is what people do in the name of God. Everybody is accountable to God.

Faith like a mustard seed. I don’t know the process of growth in a mustard  seed. But I have watched plants. They definitely take time to germinate. You have to have lots of patience and yes a belief that today could be the day you could see it sprout! My goodness what a delight it is, when it does.
To get your prayer answered, is kind of the same way, patience and the belief that today could just be the day when it all comes around.
The point Jesus was making is that even a little bit of faith, faith the size of a mustard seed, can overcome mountainous obstacles in our lives. Miracles are never a magic show! You pray and leave it to God. You don't need anybody in the world to tell you that your prayer has been heard by God. 
Only Believe! 
God always answers in His time. Not my time, or yours, but His time. Not one minute early and not a second late. Always on time, His time.

Have faith in God! Mark 11:22

Have faith in His Will! It always works out. God always has our best interest. Trust God!

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5th April, 2019.

First Friday & way of the Cross.
Celebration of the mass 07:30 p.m. – Fr. Allwyn Nazareth.
The Cost of Discipleship - talk by Fr. Allwyn Nazareth. On my way to the prayer room, I kiss the heart of Jesus, as I look into the eyes of Jesus, I feel Jesus gaze back at me. It was deep…

7th April, 2019.
Ordination day: 6th April
White Flowers in the Church. Reminds me of the Promise of Lilies. (White Lilies)
The first Christmas Fr. Reuben had come to Mt. Carmel, those were the most beautiful flowers that ever adorned the Altar. To my eyes, to my heart-it was beautiful.
10:15 am: Thanksgiving mass Fr. Omar
06:00 pm: Thanksgiving mass Fr. Ashwin
Two Bishops (name I don’t know)
These are some of the Priests whose names I know, in attendance Fr. Joe, Fr. Reuben, Fr. Daniel, Fr. William, Fr. Byron, Fr. Ashlyn, Fr. Lenny, Fr. Elton, and Fr. Savio.
I saw Fr. Ashlyn walking down the Altar, I thought he grew a beard or moustache. I couldn’t tell because there was another priest with him.
Fr. William had come to the prayer room. The last time I was seated behind him and this time too. I touched the chair he was seated in.

In the evening I saw no 6677 – Both 6+7=13. We have 1313

8th April, 2019
06:00 06:45 and 07:30 – On my way to the Church in the morning I notice 67. 6+7=13

10th April, 2019.
06:00 06:45 and 07:30 – The last hymn 67. Colours of Day
The third day of confessions at Mt. Carmel.
07:30 – celebration of the mass. Fr. Christopher and other Priest, who also sat at the confessionals.
Beautiful homily by the other Priest. I loved it.

I make my confessions, where I could kneel to the presence of Jesus (the Priest). The feeling after confessions is awesome.
O death, where is thy sting?

11th April, 2019.
From my parents home, kitchen window, again I see no 67.

14th April, 2019. PALM Sunday.
Fr. Alvaro and Fr. Ashwin
10:15 a.m. - Celebration of the mass
Fr. Alvaro gave a homily explaining the deeper meaning to Palm Sunday. I love that about Fr. Alvaro. He always explains. He has so much knowledge, so much insight.
I love Fr. Alvaro’s passionate enthusiasm to give the homily. He likes for people to understand. There is so much life in him-when he speaks. He always gives his best, when celebrating the mass, when he gives his homily and at confessions.

18th April, 2019, Maundy Thursday.
08:00 – celebration of the mass.
Fr. Reuben, Fr. Christopher and Fr. Alvaro.
Fr. Daniel’s absence…
After receiving the Body of Christ, Jesus permits me to see His presence in people who receive HIM. I felt the souls all of them. Jesus shares this with me and makes me see how precious they are.
11:00-An hour with the LORD!

19th April, 2019, Good Friday.
12:00-03:00 Fr. Andrew
06:00 – The Service

Fr. Ashwin, Fr. Reuben, Fr. Christopher and Fr. Alvaro.

Fr. Ashwin’s homily given with love.

Fr. Daniel’s absence…

08:00-Passo Service

My cousin waited. I met a friend after 2 years and a family friend after so many years. It was nice.

20^th April, 2019, Holy Saturday.

07:00 – An hour with Mama Mary.

No money box at all this time! Words cannot express the joy I felt at that moment. I will always remember! It was good!

20^th April, 2019. Easter Vigil.

Fr. Reuben, Fr. Christopher and Fr. Alvaro.

The Exsultet – sung by Fr. Reuben. I absolutely loved it. So soothing, so warm and lively and so beautiful a voice. What a delight to my ears. I love it when Fr. Reuben sings.

His celebration of the mass is perfect. What I could not convey in words on the 21^st I write here as directed by God.

Fr. Alvaro - the light for the candle on Easter Sunday.

I am thrilled! I got the light from Jesus. 

21^st April, 2019. Easter Sunday.

10:15 – celebration of the mass Fr. Reuben

Wished Fr. Daniel and Fr. Reuben

When waiting to wish Fr. Reuben a lady (Eucharistic Minister and also a lector) asked my name and I politely asked for hers, knowing fully well that her daughter and husband were near, I did not want to offend her by not asking. Hardly did I ask for her daughters, when she began to speak with the Priest. I know she heard but gave a deaf ear.

A couple of months back, her response was just smile and leave. But then came those horrible nasty expressions. When offering Peace, she would look through me. It did not make a difference to me. But when standing before Fr. Reuben it surprised me that she wanted to know my name. Hypocrisy!

I haven’t written her name, as directed by the Holy-Spirit with respect to Fr. Reuben.

22^nd April, 2019.

It is not my intention to travel on Sunday, let alone on Easter day! But we have to, my mom has asked us to be there. We reach Mangalore by 10:30 in the morning. 

I am here, in obedience to God. (A month I think)

23^rd April, 2019.

What we have come for-to help my parents with, one of the main work, has been realized. Praise God!

First rains in Mangalore with heavy breeze. What a beautiful feeling - the showers of rain!

13^th May, 2019.

I watch The Terminal a movie with my family on TV. It has the number 67 all over. The advertisements too had 67 repeat itself.

14^th May, 2019.

I see a Peacock roaming freely around.

I see a black bird, looks like the Crow, has a Swan like neck and when it is about to fly, its feathers have a shimmering effect.

15^th May, 2019.

I see a bird with blue flapped wings and black outline and the body of the bird is blue with a yellow beak and a little bigger than the Sparrow.

There was music that was played in Big Bazaar in Mangalore. What was surprising is that they never ever play English music. And they played this one. 'I can’t help falling in love with you'

This was the first song that was played after the 10:15 Couples mass on a Sunday Morning! The mass was celebrated by Fr. Reuben. I do not remember the date. It could have been the 10^th or the 17^th of February. Maybe, the 17^th.

10^th June, 2019.
My mom happens to be watching the movie-Die another day and it has the line which mentions 1967. I’ve had the number 67 come up so many times in the day. Could it be a year?

I can make a detail as it comes along.

12^th June, 2019. 
What a beautiful weather? Heavy showers of rain with lightning and thunder effects. I love it. Amazing are the ways of God. Awesome work, Almighty God!

16^th June, 2019. 

The Holy Trinity Feast.

Everybody was celebrating it as Father’s day. It should be rightly Family day.

Fr. Michael (from Byndoor) with Fr. Francis - celebration of the mass.

You could feel the presence of God. It was undeniable with Fr. Michael. I got to receive Jesus from Fr. Michael.

21^st June, 2019.

A relative of mine, Frankie uncle, passed away.

23^rd June, 2019.
My parents wedding Anniversary.

07:30 – celebration of the mass. Fr. Francis and other priest

I loved the homily of the other priest.

For the offering during the mass, there were fruits etc. and a liquor bottle (maybe sacramental wine) I thought it shouldn’t be that way.

04:30-Funeral mass of Frankie uncle.

Fr. Alban and Fr. Francis

Fr. Alban says God loves a cheerful giver and his talk was pertaining to people to being more generous in giving to the Church. I asked my mom, does he remember, this is a funeral mass?

Fr. Alban is known for building Kalmady church, built in the shape of a boat.

25^th June, 2019.

We were to leave for Bombay on the 25^th.

Months mind mass for Frankie uncle.

My mom requests us not to leave on the coming Saturday, but leave on a Sunday. I don’t like to travel on a Sunday so now we leave on a Monday, the 1^st of July. 

30^th June, 2019.

07:30 – celebration of the mass. Fr. Francis and Fr. Crasta.

Again liquor bottle, packed and given as offering during the celebration of the mass with other offerings.

People don’t know this, but it is not what an offering should be.
Here everything was brought from the market and offered to the Lord. There was a liquor bottle. Maybe it was sacramental wine. Would this be right, would any of such things be right, to offer to God, what one has purchased with money?

2^nd of July, 2019.

We reach today morning. As I pass the Church, I think, I see Fr. Christopher. I am happy to be back.

3^rd of July, 2019.

I am sick-shivering cold.

April 22^nd – 1^st July 2019.

I was in Mangalore for a whole 2 months and 9 days counting.

When we left for Mangalore, I thought we were leaving for just a month. My parents needed help. But I did what God asked me to do.

And yes I carried all my little plants with me. I never worried, where I would plant them, but now they are all growing in Mangalore. I learnt a lot on growing plants.

I watched them, Papayas, Cashews, Custard Apple, Tomatoes and Mogem (vegetable from cucumber family), germinate. It takes time and a lot of patience. It’s a wonderful feeling.

All the years whenever I got the opportunity to eat a Papaya, it would be tasteless. It didn’t matter, which place, the end result was always the same.

The best Papayas, come from Mangalore. I don’t think you get them anywhere else. In Bombay, you get to see a lot of them. It looks like Papayas are genetically engineered to be produced at that bulk at which they come in the market.
Anyhow, this time when I went home, the Papayas were just so sweet, like when I was a child. I had a lot of Mangoes and nearly every day! I enjoyed having a lot of Gadbad’ and a lot of Ice-sticks!

God works in amazing ways! All in Mangalore
My brothers 14th year, since he left this world.
Visited my uncle’s grave.
Visited my mom’s birth place after so long.
Invited since a long time, finally made it and had a good time. I was with part of the Braganza’s. Brought back beautiful memories.
I was at Stella Maris Church, Kalmady.

In our prayers, my cousin and me pray for everyone, including Frankie uncle for his good health. We prayed for God's will.

We were there for Frankie uncles funeral.
My cousin took me to the beach. It was a beautiful ride. My goodness, what an amazing thing it is the way God works in our lives.
I see Peacocks most of the time. And I know, it is a reminder of God and the strength of a prayer. I have waited my whole life. I believe my time has come.

To God all praise! 

7th of July, 2019.
10:15 a.m. Celebration of the mass. Fr. Daniel.
English mass after nearly 2 months. I absolutely loved it.

8th of July, 2019.

My brother Aurelius' Birthday.

12th of July, 2019.
Novena to our Lady of Mt. Carmel begins.
06:00 a.m. Fr. Christopher
06:45 a.m. Fr. Reuben
07:30 a.m. Fr. Daniel

My cousin Jull' Birthday.

13th of July, 2019.
Fr. Daniel, Fr. Christopher and Fr. Alvaro

14th of July, 2019.

Mummy' Birthday.

1st July, 2019.
On our way to Bombay, when waiting for the bus, it got all of a sudden too cloudy. I prayed to Abba Father, that if it be His will to hold the rain for some time. I never pray for stoppage of rain, and I don’t pray for holding. But I had very little choice. We had a long journey ahead of us and no rain gear. I did not want to get wet. But it came pouring down like I did not pray. I went down stood in the little shelter that was provided by the roof above. My mom stood up, while holding her umbrella. And I thought, these are the few moments, before the bus comes. I am missing on the opportunity of speaking with my mom. I went up stood under her umbrella. My mom, held me tight in her arms, like a mother holds her little baby. As far as I remember, I never ever remember her holding me that way. Today she did, for the longest time ever. There are no words that can express what Abba Father did to my heart. God filled that gap in my heart. I am forever indebted.
I realized that very moment standing there, why the bus was delayed. I realized why, Abba Father permitted it to rain so wildly. I got completely wet on the right side of me.
I realized, I am so loved! John 3:16

11th of July, 2019.
Its been more than 1 1/2 month of not being able to hear. I could hear only if the person stood close and I could hear a few words.
I am able to hear from the left ear, now, so clearly. My right ear will hopefully open soon. The last time I was able to hear this clear was when I was 3 1/2-4 years old. It's so wonderful to hear again this loud and clear.

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1st of July, 2019.

Fr. Ashlyn' Birthday.

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With all my love,
For Love Prevails!
AnitA.

PRAYER: Abba, Father, keep me obedient and always faithful. Remember, this your servant.

Mama Mary keep me humble, I pray. Amen.

Prayer for the souls in PURGATORY: - Our Lord dictated the following prayer to St. Gertrude the Great to release 1,000 Souls from Purgatory each time it is said.

"Eternal Father, I offer Thee the Most Precious Blood of Thy Divine Son, Jesus, in union with the masses said throughout the world today, for all the holy souls in Purgatory, for sinners everywhere, for sinners in the universal church, those in my own home and within my family. Amen."

Tender LOVE

It’s been a while now and we have gotten used to the term girl power and with Beyonce’s-who rule the world, well you understand what I am trying to emphasize?

Women, girls all like to believe that they are the power? Women want to do everything that men do and in time supersede them. When men are men and women want to be the man, then that is a question?

A woman is the one who binds the family with her love and care. Now that is extreme power, if only a woman could ever understand that. A wife lovingly supports her husband. A mother watches over her children. But when a woman decides to be the man, it causes a disruption in the flow of life.

Mary a simple girl-a human being,

Mary’s Yes-Mary’s obedience to God made her, who was filled with grace, to receive the Son of God-Jesus in her womb,

Mary’s obedience to Joseph-her husband. 

Mary the mother of God, our Lord Jesus Christ, stood silently at the side of her crucified Son.

Mary’s silence in suffering. Mary’s simple life-simple ways… Mary, the perfect woman, the Queen of Heaven!

As human beings, we always have a 1000 reasons as to why something did not work out or how everything went wrong. We question God? We are never ready to be still, least of all wait on God. A simple girl, Mary, did not choose power. Mary chose to do the will of God. Power was given to Mary, the mother of God-Queen of Heaven!

The devils lure and bait. Once a woman sets her sight onto achieving, family will always be an obstacle. The craving will be to move higher. Failure as a family-is failure to love. In a Christian family it is a failure to impart the love of Christ. At the present time there is a meltdown of what it means to be a family.

This does not only include professional life but one gets to notice this in other sectors too. Take for instance the church going women. They can’t be left far behind. They leave all their home-work, including husband and children for their so called love of God. 
Marriage means commitment. Family means responsibility. Love of God means love of neighbour. That means, when all the work at home is completed, you can then proceed to help with Church acivities. When your heart is filled with the love of God, everything that is done will be in fulfilling all obligations. 

Some if not all, of the women who participate in most Church activities, are more in the Church and hardly at home. You will see them as lectors, Eucharistic ministers, cantors and what not. They will be in almost everything and someday they will pass this legacy to the daughter. Most of what I have seen. The chair is for keeps. They won’t let go.

Sometimes we read about incidents, in the newspaper that a man shot his family and himself. They looked so happy and so in love. And then everything went wrong. 
If you look at the snap, you would find it hard to believe that a loving family had such a tragic end. Snaps don’t tell anything, do they? Some people could come together and so wonderful in a snap. Snaps don’t tell of the violence, hatred and troubles that a family undergoes? I don’t believe in snaps. 
Look at the people who are getting married. They are being directed to dance to the cameraman. They will obey him, but the same they will find difficult with each other. Things are made to look picture perfect, but are they? In love and four years later it’s constant bickering. 
Don’t tell a story by a family portrait. The greatest love story has no snap. But the story lives on, in you and me! Do you understand?

There are so many temptations. The devil will use everything he has in his arsenal. He won’t stop. He started with Eve and now he has a whole army of women who want power and the freedom to express themselves. 

There is a kind of woman who is thirsty for power and wants everything she sets her eyes on. And she will get this one-way or the other.
The other kind of woman grew up with feelings of resentment, anger and bitterness. There is a lack of tenderness, there is a lack of understanding of what love is and what love can do and the need to sacrifice oneself for the greater need of our loved ones.

How often one hears the lines, ‘my life, my way’. And you have Frank Sinatra sing, I did it my way. That song must have been a chart buster and a number one for the longest weeks. Because everybody wants to do, whatever it is, their way.

We have, Dr. Alban and Bon Jovi singing ‘It’s my life’. Well who can argue with a music like theirs?

It is only when we submit ourselves completely to the will of God, then we will experience the Peace, the world can’t give and the world can’t take it away.

More and more of Jesus, I want more of Him. More and more of His great love, rich and full and free. I want more of Jesus, so I’ll give Him more of me. A hymn I remember singing. I am not too sure, if I got the words right.

When we are tried in life, some people tend to grow bitter.

It’s been sometime now. There were certain privileges given to my younger brothers, courtesy my parents who have been kind to them. I wont go into what it is. I am happy for them. But there is a lesson in everything if we are only willing to learn and at times to let go.

All I wanted was to watch those 30 little fingers and 30 little toes grow. I have never thought of my life ever. My only prayer for me, was when I was 9. I prayed for some years after that, then I stopped.

Can I be bitter? I was hurt. I have never had any kind of expectations or desired for things from anyone. But no matter how unfair things are in the world, it is different when it is ones parents. At least so I thought. And then God made me understand, John 3:16 ‘For God so loved the world that He gave His only Son’

Don’t get me wrong, my parents would not mind spending on me. But if there is a lesson for me to learn, their hearts had to be made tough. And everything is a lesson that we must learn, always asking for God’s help and His way to discern things. And always being submissive to His plans for this life, God has been so generous to give to me. It is not my life, but rather His gift to me. 

And I began to realize how really, truly naïve I was. Here I was crying that I am not loved and Abba Father, did not withhold from giving. He gave His best, His only Son to the world, to die for us, to redeem us from sin and to give us a promise of Eternal Life. And what a Gift it is.
God allows a situation in our lives. He allowed this trial for me. God allowed for my parents to have a heart of rock when it came to me. If I did not go through this pain, which was necessary I would never understand this important lesson. I have heard it been said but to trust and believe John 3:16 is far different from what we think.

I realized LOVE is the complete giving of oneself. You hold nothing back. And that is what Abba Father does, He held nothing back from you and me. He gave us Jesus, He gave us Himself in and through Jesus. And so that we are in perfect sync we are given the Spirit of God as our Counsellor.

Abba Father, gave me all. He held nothing back. And I, what am I? I will give my all. I will hold nothing back.
I spoke with my parents, told them everything I understood, I know they too understood everything I said. I was free!
God did not withhold His best. God freely gave with no conditions attached.
John 3:16 GOD LOVES US! 

When I learnt what God had for me, when I learnt what John 3:16 should mean to me, when I learnt to rely on God and not circumstances-God bought my mom to sit with me and explain. And my mom did more for me than I had ever expected. God always has our best.

The Father, the Son and the Holy Spirit-The Trinitarian God in perfect unity.

Jesus Mary Joseph-The Holy Family in perfect unity.

When we think we possess something, we forget the reality that even our very own life is not ours. We cannot live a second longer than the time allotted for our stay here on Earth. What do we control? Absolutely nothing. When I am nothing, I will learn the truth that LOVE with all its tenderness is the way to God.

We all have very good reason to be kind to one another and show compassion!

“Let all bitterness and wrath and anger and clamour and slander be put away from you, with all malice, and be kind to one another, tenderhearted, forgiving one another, as God in Christ forgave you.” Ephesians 4:32

“love one another with brotherly affection; outdo one another in showing honor.” Romans 12:10

In the present world, how often do we come across people who are rude, hard hearted, mean, aggressive, arrogant to name a few. How often do we yearn for people who are soft-spoken, gentle and kind? Do we meet such people ever? I like to ponder.

You cannot become kind hearted if you are in the company of people who are bitter. You will miss your way if you keep watching violent movies or participate in groups with violent behaviour. If you keep listening to music that is aggressive or are in the company of people who are aggressive then, you will most likely follow it as the road to life. After all you become what you most likely listen to.

I love to watch the movies that depict kindness in people, I love to listen to that kind of talk. It soothes the heart.  

To be tender-hearted one has to be understanding and have a compassionate heart.

We are imperfect people. We have our ups and downs. We commit mistakes. But when we walk, in this road to life, we must try to be perfect, just like our Father in Heaven, Who is perfect. And when we realize our shortcomings, we must remember to have compassion on our brother or sister, who fall short.

“Tender,” in the Bible refers to the heart that we need to seek. A delicate person that is always gentle and kind to their friends and family.

We all want someone who will reach the very depths of our heart.
A sensitive heart-  
It is the affection that God shows us as a Father.
It is the spirit of giving that is cheerful.
It is always putting others ahead of oneself.

A righteous man knows the rights of the poor; a wicked man does not understand such knowledge. Proverbs 29:7

The way we look at helping the poor and our depth of generosity shows our hearts.

We are told, not to harden our heart.

We are told, not to hold on to what we have.

We are told, to give all that a person needs for whatever he lacks.

That person who needs help, could be someone within or outside the family. When you closed your heart to your neighbour, you closed your heart to God. That mercy I to others show, that mercy Lord show to me. When we fail to show mercy, we fail to be the face of God to the oppressed-to the person who needs us the most. That person could be a brother/sister, close relative, friend, total stranger (for all-NEIGHBOUR). When we fail to love our neighbours and we say we love God, WE LIE. We become hypocrites.

There will always be somebody we could help and therefore there are always opportunities to be tender, to be kind with brotherly love, in honour preferring one another.

I must humbly consider others more important than myself. It is grace-It is much more than talking about helping another; it is doing something.

A man should start with his wife, with whom he is often not tender. A woman should start with her husband, with whom she can be bitter and insensitive.

Bitterness is the death of tender-heartedness. We need to learn God’s compassion, loving kindnesses, and tender mercies.

We need to be like children. We are astonished by their innocence. From them, we need to learn to let go.

For you were called to freedom, brethren; only do not use your freedom as an opportunity for the flesh, but through love be servants of one another. For the whole law is fulfilled in one word, “You shall love your neighbour as yourself.” But if you bite and devour one another take heed that you are not consumed by one another. Galatians 5:13-15

At the end of the day, what is it that you look forward to? Do you like to speak and what kind of conversation do you like to have? It is so important for someone to listen as we speak and understand us and be gentle with their comments.

What is that you look forward to when you speak with a person? Is it the words? Is it the gentleness that makes them so wonderful to speak to-listen to?

Simplicity makes a person more true to what he speaks and his approach to others.

Humility at heart. That every person I come across is important to God and must be treated with utter and complete love.

Lead by example being tender hearted always and let love pave the path to a loving tomorrow.

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